I'm so sad to know that someone I love is suffering because of cancer. I already lost someone I loved from that terrible disease. And it looks like humanity will keep suffering since we don't really have a cute for it.
It's always the good people that get the worst stuffs. I keep praying for you and ask God to give you more time with us because we love you so much that we can't imagine live without you. My mom finally found a good man after everything she endured throughout the years. And seeing how happy you make her, makes me happy too. Please keep fighting. Fight for you and for every one of us who loves you so much. You are a such inspiration in our lives.
I know it's tough. But I know you can make it. Just keep faith in God n in the love we have for you. God loves you. It will give you the strength and we will give you the love. Please God help us. Please. We need him. He is the center of our family.
I believe in you God. I trust you. And I'm sure you know what's best. And what's best for us is to stay together. And keep spending quality time together as a family. I miss my family terribly. I wish I can be sixth you guys. But you are always with me in my heart. And everyone of you has a special spot in it for ever.
Hid help us. Amen!

Please God help us.

God help us! Someone we love is suffering because of cancer. I already lost someone I loved from that terrible disease. Please God help us. We need him. He is the center of our family. My mom finally found a good man after everything she insured throughout the years. Seeing how happy you make her makes me happy too. You bring so much joy in our lives everyday. You are such an aspiration to us.
Please don't give up and keep fighting like I know you will. Please God help us! You are the father that I always wanted to have. We want you to be with us for so many things we still have to do together. You came in our lives and showed us a way of life we never looked before. With your wisdom you give us priceless advices and guide us.
We want and need you around Daddy. Please God help us. I know God that you have plans for each of us, but I doubt one of them is to separate us now. I need you. We need you. Mommy needs you. Please help us.

Just chilling!!

It's 11 AM and I'm still in bed. It feels good to just stay in bed. It's been a while that it happened to me. I feel so lazy!! Maybe that's what really call a lazy day. I worked so hard for so long these past days that I forgot how it feels not to work. But I still have homework and my Algebra class is killing me. Hopefully I'll pass that class. I never failed a class and I hope it won't happen now!
I can't help but thinking about finishing school. I'm so exited!!! Watching the news is so depressing. So I'll probably cook lunch for the kids if lazy leaves me alone. I don't know what to cook yet. They are so picky! Well nothing special happened to me last week. So I'm probably boring to read right now so I stop punishing you and keep watching Wipe out and see people falling down. So funny!
02/19/2014
I'm in class this morning. I feel better than yesterday. I have to work. And this morning the week is on! I feel energetic to face the day. Just hope good things ahead! So far, the teacher is giving back some graded assignments, and I'm not too happy with some of them. But I think I'll make it fine. Hopefully!  

I'm so happy!

It's been a long journey! It's been 4 years that I'm in this country. It was hard at first. I had to learn a new language, new culture, new country and find another identity. I still can't believe everything I accomplished in four years. I came here without even a high school diploma, and I got it the first attempt around 3 years ago in a barely spoken language. I will always say thank you to my teachers back home. They taught me English, Spanish and Italian. And I was always wondering what would I do with these languages?  But now I understand the value of learning different languages. I was able to write and read English, but my challenge was to speak it.
Today I know my oral communication is not yet where I would like it to be, but I feel proud of myself to be in college and do well. But I'm more proud today because it's a special day in my life. I became a U.S citizen!! Woo!! I'm so happy. Something that I can check on my list as DONE. I'm so proud to be American today! February 11th 2014. One of those day that I will never forget. I feel more and more confident about tomorrow. No matter the bumps on the road, I keep jumping over them. So bring it on life. All those challenges only make the road harder. But once I reach the destination, the journey looks like a joke!! And I'm happy when I have the last laugh! Thank you God!

Beauty standards.

What is beauty? I mean physical beauty. I have my own opinion on the question. To me Beauty is what the eye sees and the brain finds attractive. Beauty might vary from individual to another. But it is a matter of how you feel inside. When you feel beautiful, the world can see the beauty you carry.
But today, society sets up the standards of beauty. A woman needs to be skinny but with big breast and big derrière. What's up with that? Now women everywhere are so desperate to fit in that they are getting any type of surgery at their lives' risks. Curves are back but not the natural curves! You have to have your breast and behind twice bigger than your waist.  So many celebrities such as Nicky Menage, Kim Kardashian, and many more are so redone to just make it to the fame. But what about the common woman who can't afford this type of adjustment?
What about models who deprave themselves for their careers?!! These girls have so many tricks just to keep their skins on their bones. Throwing up, or even eating cotton balls! But once again, society sets up the standards. We will never be happy with what God gave us! Even if we like it society will tell you what they think and will treat you only according to what they perceive not what they know about you. So sad!
All those thoughts come more and more to me these days. I have my own battles. But I try to be happy with what I got. There is a song from Beyoncé's new album that I love. It's called " pretty hurts".  If you listened to it you'll know what I'm talking about if not, check it out! I love the lyrics and the melody. I hope it will reach many girls to help them realizing that it doesn't worth it. There will always have the next cute girl, you are just the girl of the moment. Think about what your life could be if you wear your beauty on your own terms. People won't have any choice but fallow your idea of you not you fallowing their idea of you. We should not be suffering to please others.  "It's the soul that needs surgery". Pretty should not hurt!!