It's done!!

I said during last class that I was happy blogging was done! I felt like it at this time and now I realized I will miss my teacher Professor Beard! She is such an inspiration to me. It was my second class with her and I learned so much about computers and Internet. But I'm so proud to see a young successful black woman sharing her knowledge and be involved with her students ( as long as you show up for class and do your work). She gives advices not only on the class she is teaching but also on life in general. Her class is not stressful but she stays fair and impartial.  I want to be her when I grow up lol!!
I really need those 10 days break before next term. 💆I can use that. I don't have anything crazy to share as my last blog beside: there is no substitute for hard work, there is no short cut to heaven and success is a journey, but a destination!! We have to go through things to be the persons we are. And everything happens for a reason, good or bad. There is nothing God gives you that you can't handle.
I want to say "thank you" to you Professor Beard for teaching me and contribute to the person I want to be and the person I will be. You gave me a tool that money could never buy: Knowledge📓And I know that's one more key I add on my "success"key chain that will open another door for me. It's my passport to success land!!
Simply Thank you! 👏

Almost there!!

I can't help but keep thinking that I only have one more term before graduate!  I have so many plans for this coming summer. Before the ceremony that I intent to be, I hope I can save enough money to go to Paris visiting my best friend. Maybe going to Gabon visiting my family. I just want to have fun!
It is weird that after 2 years I feel more pressure than when it started school. I have too much going on but I 'm exited at the same time. Can 't wait to find my dream job and establish myself. I think I will wait maybe 6 months before to start with my bachelor program. I don't want to see a book for some times.
I hope I will reach most of my goals this summer. I really want to be done with school, but at the same time I know I will miss it. But I hope to be busy so I won't feel it. I met interesting people. I made friends, enemies but the most important is that I met people that I know will be in my life for a long time! Hopefully! I met mentors. People that I can rely on in many ways. And it feels good to know that you have someone to talk to and get some genuine advices. I don't have my family and friends with me here, but I know I can lean on them.
Thank you again!!

It's so good!

I'm at home after my Algebra class! This class is killing me. I bought some fish.  I'm cooking a dish called Tchep Gen. It's from Senegal. It's a dish made of fish, vegetables and red rice. I remember loving it back home. Damn it was good. Just hope I can make it work even thought the ingredients are kind of different. You can't duplicate the real thing.
I just pour myself a good glass of Margarita.  Feeling tipsy. But God knows I needed it. Too much stress school called me at school today and I have to leave class and rush pick up my daughter who was sick.
However, I will enjoy my dish. It 's sometimes a good way to reconnect with my roots. Especially when my mom comes to visit. She brings me food  and ingredients from back home. So I always have some stuffs to make a real good dish. I remember how good it was to eat things from my back yard. Fresh and healthy. Since I got here I eat quick food and I start getting weight so fast. I need to work out.
I like to cook healthy and fresh food. It's so simple and so good. I understand that it's really hard to cook at home because of the American life style. Always on the run. But I take every chance I get to cook for my family.

I'm so sad to know that someone I love is suffering because of cancer. I already lost someone I loved from that terrible disease. And it looks like humanity will keep suffering since we don't really have a cute for it.
It's always the good people that get the worst stuffs. I keep praying for you and ask God to give you more time with us because we love you so much that we can't imagine live without you. My mom finally found a good man after everything she endured throughout the years. And seeing how happy you make her, makes me happy too. Please keep fighting. Fight for you and for every one of us who loves you so much. You are a such inspiration in our lives.
I know it's tough. But I know you can make it. Just keep faith in God n in the love we have for you. God loves you. It will give you the strength and we will give you the love. Please God help us. Please. We need him. He is the center of our family.
I believe in you God. I trust you. And I'm sure you know what's best. And what's best for us is to stay together. And keep spending quality time together as a family. I miss my family terribly. I wish I can be sixth you guys. But you are always with me in my heart. And everyone of you has a special spot in it for ever.
Hid help us. Amen!

Please God help us.

God help us! Someone we love is suffering because of cancer. I already lost someone I loved from that terrible disease. Please God help us. We need him. He is the center of our family. My mom finally found a good man after everything she insured throughout the years. Seeing how happy you make her makes me happy too. You bring so much joy in our lives everyday. You are such an aspiration to us.
Please don't give up and keep fighting like I know you will. Please God help us! You are the father that I always wanted to have. We want you to be with us for so many things we still have to do together. You came in our lives and showed us a way of life we never looked before. With your wisdom you give us priceless advices and guide us.
We want and need you around Daddy. Please God help us. I know God that you have plans for each of us, but I doubt one of them is to separate us now. I need you. We need you. Mommy needs you. Please help us.

Just chilling!!

It's 11 AM and I'm still in bed. It feels good to just stay in bed. It's been a while that it happened to me. I feel so lazy!! Maybe that's what really call a lazy day. I worked so hard for so long these past days that I forgot how it feels not to work. But I still have homework and my Algebra class is killing me. Hopefully I'll pass that class. I never failed a class and I hope it won't happen now!
I can't help but thinking about finishing school. I'm so exited!!! Watching the news is so depressing. So I'll probably cook lunch for the kids if lazy leaves me alone. I don't know what to cook yet. They are so picky! Well nothing special happened to me last week. So I'm probably boring to read right now so I stop punishing you and keep watching Wipe out and see people falling down. So funny!
02/19/2014
I'm in class this morning. I feel better than yesterday. I have to work. And this morning the week is on! I feel energetic to face the day. Just hope good things ahead! So far, the teacher is giving back some graded assignments, and I'm not too happy with some of them. But I think I'll make it fine. Hopefully!  

I'm so happy!

It's been a long journey! It's been 4 years that I'm in this country. It was hard at first. I had to learn a new language, new culture, new country and find another identity. I still can't believe everything I accomplished in four years. I came here without even a high school diploma, and I got it the first attempt around 3 years ago in a barely spoken language. I will always say thank you to my teachers back home. They taught me English, Spanish and Italian. And I was always wondering what would I do with these languages?  But now I understand the value of learning different languages. I was able to write and read English, but my challenge was to speak it.
Today I know my oral communication is not yet where I would like it to be, but I feel proud of myself to be in college and do well. But I'm more proud today because it's a special day in my life. I became a U.S citizen!! Woo!! I'm so happy. Something that I can check on my list as DONE. I'm so proud to be American today! February 11th 2014. One of those day that I will never forget. I feel more and more confident about tomorrow. No matter the bumps on the road, I keep jumping over them. So bring it on life. All those challenges only make the road harder. But once I reach the destination, the journey looks like a joke!! And I'm happy when I have the last laugh! Thank you God!

Beauty standards.

What is beauty? I mean physical beauty. I have my own opinion on the question. To me Beauty is what the eye sees and the brain finds attractive. Beauty might vary from individual to another. But it is a matter of how you feel inside. When you feel beautiful, the world can see the beauty you carry.
But today, society sets up the standards of beauty. A woman needs to be skinny but with big breast and big derrière. What's up with that? Now women everywhere are so desperate to fit in that they are getting any type of surgery at their lives' risks. Curves are back but not the natural curves! You have to have your breast and behind twice bigger than your waist.  So many celebrities such as Nicky Menage, Kim Kardashian, and many more are so redone to just make it to the fame. But what about the common woman who can't afford this type of adjustment?
What about models who deprave themselves for their careers?!! These girls have so many tricks just to keep their skins on their bones. Throwing up, or even eating cotton balls! But once again, society sets up the standards. We will never be happy with what God gave us! Even if we like it society will tell you what they think and will treat you only according to what they perceive not what they know about you. So sad!
All those thoughts come more and more to me these days. I have my own battles. But I try to be happy with what I got. There is a song from Beyoncé's new album that I love. It's called " pretty hurts".  If you listened to it you'll know what I'm talking about if not, check it out! I love the lyrics and the melody. I hope it will reach many girls to help them realizing that it doesn't worth it. There will always have the next cute girl, you are just the girl of the moment. Think about what your life could be if you wear your beauty on your own terms. People won't have any choice but fallow your idea of you not you fallowing their idea of you. We should not be suffering to please others.  "It's the soul that needs surgery". Pretty should not hurt!!

Why hate?

How come two people who once were in love, got married, had children together and a history, can find themselves hating each other? I keep seeing on the news that people kill their mate for any kind of reasons. It could be jealousy or finances or just because they found someone else.
Why? Why because you stoped loving someone, not just separate or get a divorce?!!!Not being together is not always a failure! Some people are better friends than lovers after realizing it wasn't work out. Better parents for their kids after separating. It's unfortunate that relationships don't work, but it's worst when people hate each other just because it didn't wort out. Life is too short to hate someone! Even when they did you wrong, which them the best and move on. There are so many things to worry about. I don't have time for hate. I might be mad, but I think God every day to give me the strength to never hate anyone. I don't know anybody that I hate. I just chose to turn my back when I feel that things don't work out in any relationship. I wish you the best, but I got to go!
Even when I'm hurt, there is no one on this earth who deserves my hate. After a while, you'll be laughing at it saying " what the hell was I thinking?". You will find so much better than what you thought you had.
When I forgive I feel so much better! I focus better on things that actually matter to me. Such as my kids, school, family and real friends. You can't keep focusing on what you don't have any control. Focus on what you can make better, over wise, you'll be losing everything. So don't hate. You don't need to love everybody, but hate is a lost of time and energy, the most important things you'll need to put on the positive in your live. Don't waste them! They are rare these days! And remember, " every star needs darkness to shine".

Technology

I know we have a paper on technology. But I couldn't help but blogging about it. How it is so prevalent in our every day's lives! How it is a great tool, and have any types of devices to makes our lives a little bit easy. We can communicate with any one across the globe, shopping, banking or just surfing on the web for any kind of reasons.
As revolutionary it can be, it brought us any types of inconvenient. Particularly how humans handle relationships. I regularly watch that show called "cat fish" on M TV, and I'm so amazed to see people being so naive. Every body could be who they want behind that screen. Most of the time they are never who they said they were. People on that show had relationships for years and were really committed! Even sending money to their supposed partner. The more technology evolves the more the other person takes some steps back when they realize they can't Skype with their victims. It's only at this time that they realize that something is odd!
I don't know if I can be that much involved with any one over the internet!! I need more than  a virtual relationship to call some one my boyfriend. How could I feel closed to someone without ever touching them? Smelling them? Without any physical interaction? Nor even seeing them? Regardless the awareness on the matter, no matter how often we see stuffs on TV, some people are still so vulnerable to find that one person who will love them unconditionally that they are disconnected from reality and the world that surrounds them.
It's really sad and unfortunate to know that there are still people who take advantage of others thought the internet. We have to aware our kids on that matter because they are still really innocent and naive. With social media, they meet any kinds of people every day and they have no way to know the real intentions of  the other person.

Can we love more than one time ?

I know everyone has an idea of what love is. I'm sure every one already at least loved once. But most of the time we don't spend our lives with that person. Lucky are the persons who can say today that they married their first love or the love of their life. But often times it doesn't end up this way!
Many people say they are in love so many times with different persons! I wonder if they know the difference between having just a big crush or just be attracted to someone and love. I mean real LOVE!! The kind of love that keeps you up all night, that makes you feel any type of ways. The kind of love that makes you want to be pretty every day, the one that makes you want to share that last piece of steak that you always refused to share with anyone before, but you feel so easy, almost natural to give to someone now!!!
To me, it's not always feeling that way for one person because, I felt this way so many times toward different persons, but the key is how long does it last? This is the question!!
You only feel this way for so long toward only one individual during a lifetime. And no matter what you might feel for someone else later one, or how many times, it will never be the same.
However, if you are lucky enough to still be with that person, or if you still have any chance to be with that person, please give yourself a favor and cherish it every day that you have on earth.
For whom who didn't have the blessing to still be with the special one. Don 't be sad. The biggest consolation is knowing that you, at least had the chance to know that very rare individual. And spend the rest of your remembering how beautiful and unique to encounter it in a life time. I know many people, way older than me, who never met that special person. And because they don't really pay attention to their own feelings the probably passed by it without never realizing it was just before them!

When it's time, it's time.

Hey every one!
I just want to talk about something that I keep observing about going to or going back to school. I keep seeing people around me, especially at school,  going to school just because. I think the decision to be educated it's something that we have to think really carefully before to take that step. Many people are not ready emotionally and physically and don't take the time to fixe their personal life to make it possible.
I see people coming to school half of the time, or when they come, it's only for one hour or so or always come late for class. And the funny thing is that they end up blaming the teacher for their grades.
I know life happens. I know we all are adults with family situations and financial challenges. But I know, as bumps on the road, they are the very things that will make us appreciate more our accomplishment.
If you don't feel ready to go to school, I advice every one not to. It took me years before I decided to go back to school. And it's a personal decision that has nothing to do with me proving anything to anyone but myself. I had to be ready emotionally and put everything together in order to make it work for me and for my family.
There is nothing wrong with waiting until you feel ready to take that step. Remember we are paying for our education. So we should take the best and the most of it., not just obtaining a Degree!
When it's time, you'll know it.

Why people are so ignorant about Africa?

As I just started this blog, I'm really tempted to ask this question. Please I would like to have your opinion guys, about what you know so far about the "mother land". Don't do any research before answering. As a group or class, I just want to know the knowledge on that matter between college students and people that I meet every day.
It's a topic that really matters to me. As an African immigrant, I'm often  stereotyped about my origin, and I'm too often shocked by what people know or think they know about my continent.
What do you think about Africa and Africans?

Hello

Hello!
I just created my first blog for my Introduction to Computer App' class! So exited!!!